When I think about giving my testimony it really scares me!  For years I didn’t think I really had a testimony to share.  I was “saved” at age 8 in an AWANA meeting.  I have always gone to church and probable would have been born in church if my birth happened on a Sunday!  My parents were youth leaders and I walked along the Christian path for most of my life.  For all intensive purposes I was “Christian” in every sense of the word.

As I moved through the years the walk became so much harder and I wondered why?  What was it that I wasn’t getting?  Then the real questions surfaced, “What does it really mean to be a Christian?”  “What does Christ require of us?” and “Am I willing to give Him what He wants” I came to a point where I was so unsure of what I was and what I wanted to become.

My parents are radical Christians and truly love God.  I had all the knowledge that they had instilled in me about Christianity and Religion.  But, after all of the years I had never taken that knowledge to heart.  I was living their “religion”.  I had not made it my own and now I was lost and searching for a way back to God.

I know for a fact that if you seek after God he is right there waiting for you.  God put so many things in my life to draw me back to Him.  My parents were encouraging me all along the way without judgment or pressure.  I met the perfect man for me.  God used our relationship to draw us both back to Him.  God provided each of my four children at the perfect time to draw me even closer to Him.

The road has been long and very hard at times.  It seems that as soon as I would actively seek after God, Satan would fight his hardest to bring me back into the existence of ineffective complacence in my Christian walk.  I have fought many battles but with Christ have won the victory for HIM.

Once I embraced Christ and His Way I threw myself whole heartedly into “working” for Him (or so I thought).  I started homeschooling my girls, teaching Sunday school, leading a ladies Bible Study, leading an after school Bible Club and of course saying YES to everything I was asked to do.  As you can imagine, I became absolutely exhausted, in body, spirit and mind.  Now I was at a loss for what to do.  That is when God used my husband to step in and say “no more!”  I prayed thinking “God would never want me to give up any ministry, would He?”  God spoke very clearly for me to obey my husband!  I dropped everything, and I mean everything but homeschooling my kids.  All of a sudden God’s love surrounded my life and I knew I was walking in His way, down the path that He had for ME.

As I have walked each day in obedience to God, everything has changed.  Through seeking Him through His Word and prayer my view of the Christian life has changed.  I have developed a great knowledge of what God has called me to be as a women, wife and mother.  The funny thing is that it is not what I thought it would be.  It is not a life of self-denial or misery serving others.  It is actually a joy and a lightning of my load to love and obey God, love and obey my husband, love, train and disciple my children.  It is only when I let the world dictate what I am suppose to be or what my life is suppose to look like that I get overwhelmed and frustrated.  God’s way is truly easy and His burden light.  The trick is to keep my eyes focused on Him and His ways.

My testimony is not one of radical salvation from some horrible life.  Although His salvation in my life is has been just as real and radical.  It is one of finding the path that God has laid out for me.  I am blessed to share my heart in my walk with God.

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